Let's make a clean new start :D

HR Closing video ...

that was the second video i ever do in my life in i think it's very special for special people

Ex-Nile fm forums admin ..

Nina's design

Hi guys how are you doing maybe what i'll say now isnt new for the people who came to the meeting cause i announced it to them but i have to say this here as well it's hard to say but it must be said ...

well as i said there i believe that every leader of a group whatever it is must come to a point where he feels he has given what he wanted to give and have done what he wanted to do and it's his role to leave when he knows that it's the right time to leave so that other people can take his place and continue the process ....

That's what has happened to me everytime i log into the forum i feel it's my mistake that i didn't leave that place now so that other people who can do better than me and have much more potential now can make it grow bigger than what i thought the biggest ...

so yeah i'm now ex-forum admin :D

Just want to say ...

Can't stop listening to this song

These days i really cant help it i keep listening to that song non-stop such a deep lyrics and a wonderful voice here we go

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But your demons and your angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought you'd be
Leavin' me with no place left to go from here
Leavin' me so many questions all these years

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stayButterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are we left to wonder, all alone, eternally
But is this how it's really meant to be
No is it how it's really meant to be

Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side

for face book readers press show original post to hear the song

A weird day ...

Today was such a weird day i don't know if it's weird or bad luck but whatever first of all i got so messed up with my plans to study Math and consequently i went to the exam and did not do very well since i didn't give care to a certain lesson and i proudly find a very big question about it i said ok "exam we ra7 le 7alo" i tried to go home i found a bus "i usually ride a taxi" and this bus drive me before my home by 15 mins walk and the moment i get off the bus the rain falls so fast and i got so messed up again .. and finally i arrive home el 7mdolilah alive :D and another thing i can't talk about it also happened and i consider it .... mm let's say the end of a long long story but i'm so glad it's over .... and another thing i keep wondering what's wrong with my studies and along confusion about my goals and vision ....

7agaaat keteeeer awy 7asalet today from thoughts and remarkable stuff and ........... el 7mdolilah :D

My final try (* new poem)

My final shoot

That was my final shoot for that star

Now i really feel it's so far

but at least i tried to reach it

and in my journey

it's light blinded me

so i couldn't see anything but it

That was my final shoot for that star

and if the shot missed it's way

Then i'll seek another star, in another place.

Ain-shams song :D

i was listening to the radio and ofcourse as u know to Nile fm and suddenly this song played and it brought me back memories to great days :D which are my first days at college i used to sing this song on my first two weeks in college while walking or let's say running between lectures.

As i always say my first two weeks in college were the worst ever so if u feel down or you feel bad from something or you study engineering in ain-shams i recommend you to listen to that song u're gonna love it :D

Writing fever ....

Maybe the confusion and the thoughts in my mind never seem to end or something i have a fever of the pen and the paper i always want to write i want to run away from everything and keep writing, don't know if this is a cure or a disease but it's attacking me these days i sometimes force myself to stop because i need to focus on other stuff... that's what i'm feeling right now total confusion of mind many things keep knocking on my head and i can't disconnect from them don't know why ... but i'll get over it isA

Changing topics i'm really fed up with these stupid lectures and it's stupid doctors i'm begining to hate them soo much i just want to scream at them ENOUGH that's ENOUGH .. they don't want to stop i was in a lecture today and suddenly i stopped concetrating on the lecture and my mind flew away to another thought which is ; that guy that guy i wish i was in his place i'd value every moment i spend with these students can't he see that there are more than 200 person/head of the next generation the most intelligent ppl in Egypt and he has 2 hours just to present his thoughts this guy can leave a legacy in everyone of us and can leave something he simply can make a difference in his country but all he does is just play that stupid data show and keep reading like us ...... i wish our doctors value their students i really wish ..... we rabena m3ana fel mid terms

Because we love what we do .....

Many people keep wondering why i changed all my display pictures to this picture belzat..... it's very simple from a video in ACES there was a quote that say "It's not how much you do but how much love you put in the doing"

This thing was sooo heavy for a weak person like me and it was one of the decorations we put every session in ACES there were many heavy stuff and i used to carry them 4 floors to deliever them from the basement to the workshop but the funny thing i just enjoyed carrying these stuff i was never tired of them because i loved what i was doing and all ACES crew each one of them was "Maf7oot" but they were so happy because they were all loving and caring for what they do and that's what makes ACES special we all loved what we did and el 7mdolilah

"I can't believe it we just made it now we're on top of the world"

The other part of us

when you feel you're losing control and everything is going out of hands and you just can't understand ; you must have passed through moments in life you thought you were a fool and for sure you must have passed ny moments you tried to cry but you worked so hard to hide your tears, cause this is life you know.

We don't live days or years we just live moments and these moments create the other part of us, the part you keep asking why or what and how, there's another world inside us it's true and it's right to ask it whenever needed, in our journey in life we may satisfy this part or come over it or even hurt it but this part can never be removed from us, it's eternal this part is what makes you ... you !!!

The journey

On our journey for self discovey we may hurt cause pain to other people without knowing that, on our journey for self discovery we may feel lost alone or we may feel gone, on our journey for self discovery which will never end we keep on trying and working till we reach nothing ......

And now i want to say it i'm tired of this journey ...........

Picture of the day

One of the final pictures i took in ACES from riskiology workshop it totally describes me now :)

Bus # 32

Today while i was at home looking through my window i saw a familiar bus and then it turned out to be bus # 32 :D for you who don't know bus 32 it's my old school bus i used to go to school by bus since kindergarden i just enjoyed watching it passing through i saw the young kids i used to play with in the bus getting bigger and older full of hope i don't know if these young kids still remember Ahmed who used to play with them every day on his way to and back from school i wonder if they've changed or still the same crazy kids i used to know it's just life it goes on and keeps moving ...

The school bus still pass my door

I don't ride it anymore

But my heart goes with it

To the place we used to go