Let's make a clean new start :D

HR Closing video ...

that was the second video i ever do in my life in i think it's very special for special people

Ex-Nile fm forums admin ..

Nina's design

Hi guys how are you doing maybe what i'll say now isnt new for the people who came to the meeting cause i announced it to them but i have to say this here as well it's hard to say but it must be said ...

well as i said there i believe that every leader of a group whatever it is must come to a point where he feels he has given what he wanted to give and have done what he wanted to do and it's his role to leave when he knows that it's the right time to leave so that other people can take his place and continue the process ....

That's what has happened to me everytime i log into the forum i feel it's my mistake that i didn't leave that place now so that other people who can do better than me and have much more potential now can make it grow bigger than what i thought the biggest ...

so yeah i'm now ex-forum admin :D

Just want to say ...

Can't stop listening to this song

These days i really cant help it i keep listening to that song non-stop such a deep lyrics and a wonderful voice here we go

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But your demons and your angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought you'd be
Leavin' me with no place left to go from here
Leavin' me so many questions all these years

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stayButterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are we left to wonder, all alone, eternally
But is this how it's really meant to be
No is it how it's really meant to be

Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side

for face book readers press show original post to hear the song

A weird day ...

Today was such a weird day i don't know if it's weird or bad luck but whatever first of all i got so messed up with my plans to study Math and consequently i went to the exam and did not do very well since i didn't give care to a certain lesson and i proudly find a very big question about it i said ok "exam we ra7 le 7alo" i tried to go home i found a bus "i usually ride a taxi" and this bus drive me before my home by 15 mins walk and the moment i get off the bus the rain falls so fast and i got so messed up again .. and finally i arrive home el 7mdolilah alive :D and another thing i can't talk about it also happened and i consider it .... mm let's say the end of a long long story but i'm so glad it's over .... and another thing i keep wondering what's wrong with my studies and along confusion about my goals and vision ....

7agaaat keteeeer awy 7asalet today from thoughts and remarkable stuff and ........... el 7mdolilah :D

My final try (* new poem)

My final shoot

That was my final shoot for that star

Now i really feel it's so far

but at least i tried to reach it

and in my journey

it's light blinded me

so i couldn't see anything but it

That was my final shoot for that star

and if the shot missed it's way

Then i'll seek another star, in another place.

Ain-shams song :D

i was listening to the radio and ofcourse as u know to Nile fm and suddenly this song played and it brought me back memories to great days :D which are my first days at college i used to sing this song on my first two weeks in college while walking or let's say running between lectures.

As i always say my first two weeks in college were the worst ever so if u feel down or you feel bad from something or you study engineering in ain-shams i recommend you to listen to that song u're gonna love it :D

Writing fever ....

Maybe the confusion and the thoughts in my mind never seem to end or something i have a fever of the pen and the paper i always want to write i want to run away from everything and keep writing, don't know if this is a cure or a disease but it's attacking me these days i sometimes force myself to stop because i need to focus on other stuff... that's what i'm feeling right now total confusion of mind many things keep knocking on my head and i can't disconnect from them don't know why ... but i'll get over it isA

Changing topics i'm really fed up with these stupid lectures and it's stupid doctors i'm begining to hate them soo much i just want to scream at them ENOUGH that's ENOUGH .. they don't want to stop i was in a lecture today and suddenly i stopped concetrating on the lecture and my mind flew away to another thought which is ; that guy that guy i wish i was in his place i'd value every moment i spend with these students can't he see that there are more than 200 person/head of the next generation the most intelligent ppl in Egypt and he has 2 hours just to present his thoughts this guy can leave a legacy in everyone of us and can leave something he simply can make a difference in his country but all he does is just play that stupid data show and keep reading like us ...... i wish our doctors value their students i really wish ..... we rabena m3ana fel mid terms

Because we love what we do .....

Many people keep wondering why i changed all my display pictures to this picture belzat..... it's very simple from a video in ACES there was a quote that say "It's not how much you do but how much love you put in the doing"

This thing was sooo heavy for a weak person like me and it was one of the decorations we put every session in ACES there were many heavy stuff and i used to carry them 4 floors to deliever them from the basement to the workshop but the funny thing i just enjoyed carrying these stuff i was never tired of them because i loved what i was doing and all ACES crew each one of them was "Maf7oot" but they were so happy because they were all loving and caring for what they do and that's what makes ACES special we all loved what we did and el 7mdolilah

"I can't believe it we just made it now we're on top of the world"

The other part of us

when you feel you're losing control and everything is going out of hands and you just can't understand ; you must have passed through moments in life you thought you were a fool and for sure you must have passed ny moments you tried to cry but you worked so hard to hide your tears, cause this is life you know.

We don't live days or years we just live moments and these moments create the other part of us, the part you keep asking why or what and how, there's another world inside us it's true and it's right to ask it whenever needed, in our journey in life we may satisfy this part or come over it or even hurt it but this part can never be removed from us, it's eternal this part is what makes you ... you !!!

The journey

On our journey for self discovey we may hurt cause pain to other people without knowing that, on our journey for self discovery we may feel lost alone or we may feel gone, on our journey for self discovery which will never end we keep on trying and working till we reach nothing ......

And now i want to say it i'm tired of this journey ...........

Picture of the day

One of the final pictures i took in ACES from riskiology workshop it totally describes me now :)

Bus # 32

Today while i was at home looking through my window i saw a familiar bus and then it turned out to be bus # 32 :D for you who don't know bus 32 it's my old school bus i used to go to school by bus since kindergarden i just enjoyed watching it passing through i saw the young kids i used to play with in the bus getting bigger and older full of hope i don't know if these young kids still remember Ahmed who used to play with them every day on his way to and back from school i wonder if they've changed or still the same crazy kids i used to know it's just life it goes on and keeps moving ...

The school bus still pass my door

I don't ride it anymore

But my heart goes with it

To the place we used to go

HR ACES 2007

people whom i'm writing this for may wonder why i'm writing this here or why did he choose his blog to say these words why not send them via-email or something, to be honest i just wanted you to see my blog :D

Some of you may have passed through it and i know many of you don't know about it i call it the another world inside of me every thought inside my mind i post it here and i made a promise to myself to keep writing here if u someday any day remembered a guy you used to work with and we had together wonderful memories all i want you to do is just check this blog and maybe u'll know what i'm going through and how's life treating me that's why i posted this message here it's special to the most wonderful team a person can ever work with

every one of you have got something inside of me you made an effect i can never erase if u check my resolutions page in this blog u'll find my wish for 2007 was to cry today the closing day i nearly cried today but i didn't cry actually in the closing today i was just smilling and saying thank you to everyone of you i dont know i didnt cry ...... but the effect that i wanted to cry for was achieved which is "we made a difference" i will always be proud to say i was part of ACES 2007

I have special message for special people i'll try to say things that no one knows about :

Osaka : begad begad feih 7aga u dont know about kan feih ayam kont weselt le mar7ala a3od feih beitna and dont go to ACES again you were giving me a support without knowing that, i owe you alot of thanks i learnt from you alot begad and i'm proud to wortk with you

AdaM: I'll never see a person devoted to his work like you ana kont bat3alem menak 7agat keteeer awy we begad ma7adesh ye3arf ad eih et3alemt menak ellah me that's why i always thank you

Amr: el brenc brenc 3omry ma hansa ur smile and keda 3ala tool far7an kont sa3at bab2a medaye2 awy ashofak yegeely amal kont fe3lan brenc .... we isA tefdal brenc

Na7la: el politician wel mozee3 kont kol yum bakteshef feik 7aga gedeeda mosh feih 7ad tany u were so special chracter dayman helping giving great advice and always big brother ...

Souka: dayman 7asetek like my big sister specially el last few days specially lama fedelna a3deen ta7t 3 hours bentala3 el crew results dayman helping hand :D wel ba2y in ur conference handbook that i wrote u before

Nadeen: ana 3omry ma kont metwake3 workshop zy handara teb2a 7elwa keda u made a great effort on it and begad kont mabsoot awy that i worked with you few weeks there we fel book of the day :D tab3aaan keep reading and encourage me to read ba2a :D

Mai: ya gama3a yemken ana el wa7eed elly worked ma3 mai in one team and all i want to say she never let me down we 3ala fekra mai khalaset 7ebr el printer beta3ha 3ala el CSP thank you notes we kanet dayman tes2al 3ala kol 7aga mashya ezay raghm enaha was toooooooooo busy feih 7agat keteer bas she never let something come over ACES just cant say more than a thank you

Radwa/Shaima2: i mixed both together 3ashan homa bel zabt zy el sisters ma2darsh afara2 ma beinhm begad ento el etnen konto 3amleen shoghl kowayes awy u were a helping hand and a friend when needed u worked so hard and i really appreciate every moment with you kan feih 7agat ba3melha like poem aw video kanet teegy radwa aw shaimaa2 te2olly " eid dah dah 7elw awy " bas heya kanet te2ool keda men hena we ana ansa kol el ta3ab elly te3ebto feih :D

Noha ezz el din: begad begad i cant say more than you're a wonderful wonderful person from both inside we outside the best comment i ever had in my life i had from you in the "let's make a clean new start" kont medaye2 yumeeha men 7aga tanya bas khadt your note we kont shebh ha3ayat if u remember what u wrote i want to thank you for it can't say more about you bas begad mabsoot en feih 7ad zyek and mabsoot aktar eno were part of my team...

Yasmeen Mancy: eihh ha2ool eih mashy ya yasmeen feih aw2aat keteer i felt in ana let you down we feih aw2at keteer 7aseet you let me down eza kont feih yum let you down or didn't meet your expectations please forgive me ana begad all my wish eny akoon was always meeting ur expectations nefsy dayman when u remember 2007 to say negm was effective in his team and i'm glad that he was HR member ama ba2a el other part when you let me down this part can be neglected compared to the things i learnt from you and the times you just put me up and it's so enough for me your trust for me to be part of such a wonderful team named HR and a bigger home called ACES......... so as the video said i just want to thank you for giving me the best days of my life

i just couldn't go to sleep before i say these words and now i can sleep we dameery mertaa7 :D

ahh one thing this poem is for ACES and i forgot to post it here so i think i better leave it here :D

Together
ACES 2007

Together we wished our dream would come true.
To make ACES home for me and you.
We stood together to spread the light.
For that we spent many sleepless nights.
Creating ACES was our ultimate goal.
Today,we achieved that and we're seeking more.
Together we stood side by side.
And with devotion we made things go right.
In a raging sea we used to sail.
And many storms in it we used to face.
But together we reached the shore of fame.
We left a legend which will forever remain.
Together we made the dream come true.
ACES is now home for me and you.

We want to thank all ACES crew because every moment we spent together was so precious
HR ACES 2007

Ana mosh m3ahom !!!!

"Ana mosh m3ahom" i'm not with them the best suitable title to discuss a really important issue since i'm supposed now to be posting my vote about the constitution amendments "hope spelling is right :D" and since i have no election card i decided to discuss it here.

I'm really not with them cause lately i have this thought in mind I'm with who... am i with the islamic current or with the modern teens "shabab mehayes" or i'm a nerd who just sleeps on the books.

I'm really not with anyone of those but inside me you'll find a part from each place but i'm not one of them "Ana mosh m3ahom ana ma3 nafsy" do u think it's wrong to be in the middle and not related to a certain thought why do we always seek to judge a person by his beliefs .... if i have long beard they say i'm "ekhwan" if i listen to mp3 all the time "ana mehayes" if i study hard they call me nerd "da7a7" is this right or wrong i don't want to be any one of those i just want to be "simply me" cause lately the Egyptian society is getting split in a bad way which will make alot of troubles soon as much as i believe; why don't we leave everyone to live and make his choices.

Back to the constitution thing I'll say an example i was in the mosque and after the prayer came a guy and stood in the middle and said "This is unfair this is injustice where are we going .............. and then in the end he said that's why we ask you not to go to vote on monday" :S:S:S

i was like why don't you simply go and say i don't agree on the amendments tell me what will he benefit if no one goes to vote it's so stupid really.

i tried to read the topics in the constitution it was so stupid cause i didn't understand a thing and every part of it can be rephrased to humdred meaning all i want for a simple person like me who hasn't got any benefits from all what's going around him "men dawsha" someone tells me "howa feih eih"

"Ana mosh m3ahom wla ma3 7ad is this a problem or a solution"

Shayefeen el shagra elly fo2...

against my traditions a title in arabic it's translation "can you see the tree hanging on the ceiling" :D lately i use this phrase in every lecture and few people know what it means :D

i simply look to the ceiling in the middle of the lecture and say "shayfeen el shagra elly fo2" and to my amazement the people siting beside me look to the ceiling :D because they are simply out of the world and the guy infront of them is doing nothing but explaining to himself my college friends know by now whenever i feel disconnected i just smile and look to the ceiling and say ....

"Shayfeen el shagra elly fo2"

Why?...

I don't know why i just wanted to write here now, though i got nothing prepared to say i just felt that i dont want to take my afternoon nap before i write few words here ... so what shall i talk about , ......

I don't know there are many things to say maybe i can write a poem or say how is it going with me on mother's day or how was my today quiz and my hopes for tomorrow's quiz, i don't know just many things to talk about.

The main thing is that i really really really need a break now from everything whatever it is :D ... and el 7mdolilah the mid terms was postponed to 14/4 don't know if this is good or bad it's just ok let's say that it gives me more time but the problem that i was entering the studying mood and now we have to get ready for ACES 2007 opening which is next week ......... mosh 3aref what i wrote now makes sense wala la2a but anyway i just felt i wanted to speak to myself for a while

and there's an idea of a poem in my mind i hope it's gonna develop in the coming days i'm gonna call it "In another world"

That's all folks :D I love captain maged lol that's why i posted his picture now i told you i wonder why .......

CRISIS (2) ....

Still in crisis of lack of concentration and focusing really losing it khales i can't focus in studying at allllll "maleesh nefs afta7 ketab" and the problem is that i have two quizes this week and a mid term by next week and i really really need every second now but i'm still losing control it's really one of the worst mental blocks i ever had ..................................

Me

-V v v v v creative

-Negm ya3ni el creativity

-The nicest and the deepest

-You're very unique

-Great team spirit

-Hady+Rasy+young achiever

-You're very good sha3er

-The next big thing in poetry

only few people will understand what these words mean and how did i get them and i want to thank them all :D

101 post

This is post 101 ... which means i'm done with 100 posts ; hundred special moments, special thoughts and special days i'm always proud of this blog and whenever i feel down i keep looking at my old posts in it :D it's like a reminder of many memorable moments i had in the last 3 months.

Some of the posts was so clear that everyone understood and there were posts that no one would ever understand them but me and as the theme of this blog is There's another world inside of me that you'll never see

I have to say during these 3 months i had a wonderful time writing in this place seeking to write 1000 moments here :D isA and always remember

"Inside everyone of us there's a writer and it's your choice whether to let it out or not "

passing moments

every day you pass by many moments

some last forever cause we spent it together

and others you wish to erase

cause their presence; all they cause you is pain

but in my case ...

both moments take place

same time,same place

CRISIS.......

CRISIS CRISIS CRISIS .............. X 10^10 khalas ana 7ases bel dayaaaaa3 :(

i can't focus or concentrate on studying KHALES i'm losing control really i was counting the things i have to do these days and i found these things are tooo many to count
i even feel so tired every day at college i sometimes sleep in lectures or lose concentration and say "ab2a afham at home" begad begad i need now to make use of every second i have in a benefitial way so i can pass this year safetly

and as my brother say :D ALWAYS SMILE DURING CRISIS

Nile fm forum's BD "my first movie"

I know u're gonna kill me i was making the count down for more than 6-days in the forum for 2 reasons one you were too smart that you got one of it which is yes it's today 14-3 the nile fm forums Birthday we're officially one year old we had great fun this year and we hope more to come isA

The second thing as a celebration of this i made the first Nile fm forum documentary movie it's called Nile fm forums one year of success

and here's the link http://al5afy.com/up/801728

Hope you enjoy the movie this year was so nice we made great stuff together hope these memories last forever

AHmeD STar

104.2 forums Admin.

Thanaweya Amma hahaha.....

Today i was having an electronics lesson which is held in a center which works as engineering lessons center and sanaweya amma center as well so todya i just saw sanaweya amma students getting out of the lesson and all i could do is just burst out laughing didn't know why but i just kept on laughing that they thought i'm crazy

-Maybe i remembered all the moments i had in similar centers

-Maybe i felt pitty for the students cause they don't know what's waiting for them

-I remembered the high spirits we used to have

-I remembered many wonderful moments and lovely people i met in these centers

-I saw them "ana leih na2es darga fel wageb" fighting for every mark

So all i could do really is laugh a laugh of happiness and pain, happiness because i finished these days and now i'm moving on with my life, pain because i didn't value the fun part of these days :D if you're in sanaweya amma believe me these days are valuable :D

Towards no where (old poem)

Towards no where

Towards no where I go
Still don’t have the courage to let go
Running in the circles of life
And feels like I’m running out of time
I wish I could change the world
But our feelings can’t be sold
Where I’m heading I still don’t know
Seeking memories from the day I was born
Nothing special to be told
I keep seeking the mirage of the desert
Soon I’ll be bitten by its lizards
Still walking in that busy road
Came a guy and told where are you going?
I told him towards no where I am heading

This isn't a new poem it's an old poem it's like one year old or something but the poem describes itself i guess; so i won't say more about it just read it cause i always feel this "Towards no where" ...............

When least expected THEORY

when least expected Theory is sooo simple which is

"Don't seek happy moments because they come when least expected"

I believe so much in this saying and whenever i sit and remember my happy moments they always came in the timings when they were least expected.
Maybe these days i work so hard to get happy moments but whenever i feel something is gonna happen to make me happy i remember this saying and it's so true we always forget that they come when least expected

el.7mdolilah

Egyptian faces

Eih today may seem an ordinary day 3ady you wake up go to college come home, during this process u never look around you cause simply you're too busy to notice any person around you but today for me was different i said why not see the faces of Egyptian people in the morning.

Simply i was ridding a taxi and i was beside "el 3abaseya square" and i looked at the faces walking in the street and i was so affected that i wanted to take a paper and write a poem but i didn't cause i simply remembered a song called "mad world" and it really described the situation perfectly the situation of Egyptians in the morning going to work

here's part of the lyrics from the song

All around me are familiar faces

Worn out places, worn out faces

Bright and early for their daily races

Going nowhere, going nowhere

And their tears are filling up their glasses

No expression, no expression

Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow

No tommorow, no tommorow

And I find it kind of funny

I find it kind of sad

The dreams in which I'm dying

Are the best I've ever had

I find it hard to tell you

'Cos I find it hard to take

When people run in circles

It's a very, very

Mad World Mad World Mad World Mad World

On my way home i tried to notice the same process again but this time i was riding a public bus and it's the same sad smile on every face you can see deep inside them their pain, sorrow desppair you can see they're tired Losing hope and no one is there to help them i felt that this country is suffering begad, it's my problem that i can read faces and i know when someone is sad or happy or tired but today i havent seen any person smiling they're all tired depressed I wish people of authority" you know who i mean" pass by the same process i passed by today

but the only thing that makes me feel happy is when i see a cute little child smiling in the street breaking all the sadness around him "The next generations are our only hope"

Do you know who i am ??

:D enjoy i love creativity

Running....

let me start this post with a quote from the wonderful movie The Pursuit Of Happyness

when Will Smith says during each part of the movie what he thinks about this period in his life with a deep voice, i remember this word so clear now

"This part of my life i call ..... Running"

These past two days were really called running :D for the first time in my life or maybe i faced these situations before but i don't know why i feel it so clear now the feeling of the fight you're fighting the strongest wrestler ever which is TIME and you can't stop it and never will all you can do is tame it so you can get out of the battle safetly but it'll keep running and you'll keep running after.

For the past two days i really realized the meaning and importance of each minute you know i did things in 15 mins which i can spend a whole day doing and for the first time in my life to keep looking in my watch around two or three times after every 15 mins.

And actually time was faster than me sometimes so i really had to run in the streets :D

el.7mdolilah

Can't concentrate

...... These days i face a really huge problem which is lack of concentration i can't focus or concentrate on one thing i keep my mind busy with many stuff and i can't disconnect from them from time to time which is a big trouble also i feel soo tired every day i have college from 8 am till 4 pm and i get tired so fast these days :S:S

but look at the bright side i have 3 days off in the week including friday "eventhough i go to college on friday" mah 3alena i need really to go back to the mood of studying as well i can't regain my strength in that as well things are beginning to pile up :D we Rabena yostor ....

Christina Aguilera - Hurt

Deeo meaning-Deep voice-Deep video

A must watch begad :(

Birthday Thank you's

I was planning to make a dedication to every person who remembered to tell me Happy birthday today but they were too much and i'm afraid to forget some of the people who contacted me today; so i wanna thank every person who just told me happy birthday today you really made me feel sooo happy and special today :D

i can say this year was one of my best birthdays i got one present which was from my brother .... i now have a flash memory 1gb :D so i can get data from anywhere i want ...thanks BRO

Brainstorm gably orange juice in cilantro :D .....

And not to mention all the sms's and dedications i got from forum members and my old friends mosh 3aref besara7a i'm out of words :D

SO ALL I CAN SAY IS A BIG THANK YOU TO YOU ALL

My birthday

My birthday:

Today is my birthday
A year has gone
And another one is to come
I still wonder,
What will pop up from the box of life?
Today is my birthday
A day which I’m supposed to celebrate
Like every person living his birthday
But I feel really strange
As I count every candle in my cake
Every moment appear so clear to me
I remember when I used to crawl,
Now I can simply walk.
I remember when I used to shed tears
Now I can hide my fears.
A year full of joy and pain has gone.
And time in it used to run.
Many people I met.
And my memories with them will never end.
Today is my birthday
And here I am writing these words
To declare a new year and a new start

Weird

hello blog i know i have been away lately and actually i have to say this here i always used to check people's blogs and check how often they post and it has basically like a post every 4 days and i always go like :@:@ these people can't be writers they need to write every day and keep checking their blog i can't imagine spending a day without writing :D

but here i am today is 27/2 and my last post was 22/2 which means i lost my bet why don't i write simply because my thoughts aren't as big as before maybe cause i wasn't in the mood or feeling bad lately or maybe because i'm sooo busy but i enjoy being busy anyway i apologize to my blog and i want to say i wasn't well judging people who neglect their blog for a certain time :D

But i'll be back :D

While searching for the solution, i forgot the real problem.

"Sad but true"

Bus Stop situation (*--)

Yesterday i was feeling the BUS STOP situation for you who don't know what the bus stop situation is you'll know when you read this text i wrote this text about a year ago i used to pass by a bus stop everyday when i used to go to center "El Orouba" so i always wanted to write about this situation the bus stop situation ....





Where am I? What am I doing here? Where are all these people going?

I found a chair in the street so I sat on and waited for a light in that dark night, from far away came a large bus honking its horn. I found many people rode it, I felt confused whether to ride it or not? but being attracted that people were riding that bus I rode it.After a while, all the people that rode the bus reached their destinations Leaving me alone in that dark bus. Then, I wondered, Why did I ride that bus at first place?



Hope this short story made you feel what a bus stop situation is for me


Sometimes in our journey we forget which roads we chose at first place , always stay in a bus stop to remind yourself where are you going first.

Simple dreams (old poem)

Simple dreams

Simple dreams and simple hopes
People seek money And other seek home
Simple dreams but still so precious
Can't be explained in thousand sessions
They don't want fortune or fame

They just want to feel the same

And all they get is the blame

Where's the hearts or still don't believe

In those simple dreams

They dream of a home or a place to let go

They dream to eat and not to feel defeat

They dream to feel peace and a place to put their feet

They dream to have a family to live with

They dream of a hope to touch

And no one tells them for how much

These are just simple dreams of normal human beings

Hre we go i wrote that piece after i saw a movie for many ppl it may be stupid but it was charlie and the choclate factory and it's really weird i only saw the first 10 mins all the rest of the movie is nonsense but if anyone saw the first part of it and how this little child were veryyy poor and all they wanted is a piece of choclate it was soo deep when u find poor people just gathered to eat a piece of choclate once a year while others buy boxes of choclate and throw them away

When you feel bad for no reason?

Hello hello "keifkom" i want to talk about a feeling we always get this feeling of being depressed for no reason and when you ask the person why are you depressed they tell you i don't know why? i'm just depressed.

I'm one of the people who always does that but the point is we really know what's making us depressed deep inside and from the outside we refuse to admit the fact that this thing is making us depressed, it can be so small things but it just can turn your whole day upside down and we still refuse the fact that this thing is bothering us and making us not feeling good, always search inside you for reasons and ask yourself questions don't seek answers any where because...The answer always lies inside of us

"What lies infront of us and what lies behind us is nothing compared to what lies inside of us"

Have a nice day :D

Thank You ... "small things count"

Hello my dear blog readers "keifkom" today i was having a session in ACES and since i'm spare as you know i keep jumping from place to another, today i was feeling kind of down and so tired during the sessions, i wanted to share with you this after Friday prayer i saw this big thing hanged on the wall ...

All i want to say is that this small thing changed my mood all day long it made me feel much better cause lately i was having hard time concernin my job in ACES and college all i want to say is that you can make a person happy with really small things and small words and as we say in HR "Stimulate work environment" i want to thank my head and every person who shared on making this cause it really made my day ............. Thank you again

B.T.C

I can officially say now i'm back to college I feel so tired and exhausted we had 4 lectures after each others two of them were electronics :S:S "7aga 3azeema awy besara7a" the doctor entered and wrote his CV on the board and we were like ................... "No comment" Egypt is full of great people indeed :D

And guess what today i drove to college with my brother "el meskin galoh el daght" but it was a good experience beware streets of cairo star is on the road .

Today was 3eid el falanteeen but as safi say you can spend it sengelawy :D and that's what i did it wasn't bad it's another day that pass your way and you got nothing to say about it.

I was supposed to be studying now but i feel so tired i don't know why even i came home slept for around 3 hrs but still feel tired those 4 lectures were like "el 3asefa" that i was talking about in my previous post.

Happy valentine to you all enjoy it singelawy aw ahlawy :D

I need you (* valentine special)

I Need you now

I really need you now

I need you more than anytime before

I want to search this whole world

To find you seems to be my ultimate goal

I really need you now

More than anytime before

I want to hold you close

Believe me i need nothing more

I want to tell you you're the one for me

I need to realize that it's real

I really need you now

More than anytime before

I need you because i want to cry

And you're the only one who can make me smile

What's going on in my life?

I know it's been alot of time since i posted here whats going on in my life well i'm writing abt the major stuff that took place in my life for the last couple of days

Thursday:

Me and my friends went out and saw the movie pursuit for happyness it's a really great movie and full of meanings if you can catch it anytime make sure to check it out then we had a long walk from "midan el 7egaz" to "roxy" it's just me and my old school friends we rarely meet you know and we promised to meet again 7/7/2007 7pm in 7 buildings square isA :D so my schedule is booked for that day

Friday:

I had in the early morning a session in ACES since i'm the spare HR i kept jumping between each workshop,i really enjoyed it there this time don't know why it's just the feeling that you're back to this atmosphere, after that i quickly went to the SOS 3 to meet my Nile fm'ers there we had great time there really, the music wasnt that good but i always like the general atmosphere in SOS concerts also i was glad to meet nearly a great deal of Nile fm presenters and took photos with them.

Saturday:

woke up "bel darb" and went to college had two lectures i wasn't ready at all for college to be honest but it was just fine cause i discovered that i have 2 days off sunday/monday, then went to visit my grandfather.

Sunday:

Stayed at home on the PC

Monday:

Brainstorm's birthday we succeeded in surprising him :D

Tuesday:

Had first lecture cancelled so went to college met friends said Hi then came back home and now i'm writing in the blog :D

I feel for my college this is "el hodo2 allazy yasbek el 3asefa" rabena yostor

The Rain(*Poem)

The Rain

When the rain falls on your face

You feel it flying in the space

You feel the beauty of the world

You feel you want to run and escape

When the rain falls on your face

It brings you back memory of the past

The places you used to go

The people you used to know

You feel the beauty of life's soul

When the rain falls on your face

Think how small you are

And how things are going so far

Think of God's miracles

Can you feel the beauty of mother nature?

When the rain falls on your face

But at the same time you want to cry

Hidding the rain of tears inside your heart

Just smile and say

El 7mdolilah i'm still alive

No comments+some quotes

It's been a month or something and i rarely get any comments on my blog i must admit sometimes i feel sad once a friend asked me all i see in ur blog is ur writings what are you doing there? then i told him i don't know maybe talking to myself he told me then you must be crazy :D or "3andak enfesam" i was like no not like that it's that i believe after two years from now i'll read these stuff and see how stupid life is and small :D it's like a reminder of my life that's why i enjoy writing here so much and i really don't seek comments i just seek to talk and put out my energy in writing instead of something else.



speaking of comments i was lucky enough to catch a link to something called Egyptian blogers ring and it contains loads of Egyptian blogs and i was amazed by the talents we have in this country i thought my blog was paradise but i found blogs with people who really have beautiful minds in our country Egypt ............... There's still hope isA http://egybloggers.com


I was trying to read The 8th habit written by steven covey sadly it seems i won't be able to finish it by this holiday :( i'll try my best to read some from it every now and then this guy is so goood maybe it's experience i don't know i found myself pressing stop on the audio book and reading his biography on the net and guess what i found some of his quotes which you should read :D

Talking about the need of the 8th habit
"Being highly effective as individuals and organizations is no longer optional in today’s world—it’s the price of entry to the playing field. But surviving, thriving, innovating, excelling and leading in this new reality will require us to build on and reach beyond effectiveness. The call and need of a new era is for passion."

"If you're proactive, you don't have to wait for circumstances or other people to create perspective expanding experiences. You can consciously create your own. "

"Management is efficiency in climbing the ladder of success; leadership determines whether the ladder is leaning against the right wall."

"We are not animals. We are not a product of what has happened to us in our past. We have the power of choice."

after these quotes u need some music don't you here's a great track from Bond i like this track so much

Al-Bedaya

OMG i was just watching tv for the first time in AGES and i stopped at Rotana zinema and for the first time i applied their slogan "Mosh ha2dar aghamad 3enaya" they were viewing a movie called el Bedaya and for the first time i see a movie which reviews all Egyptian and world's situations in a really great way if u can catch this movie any time it's a MUST cause i really felt that our situation is inside this movie and i guess this movie can never be viewed on Egyptian TV i totally doubt that :D

here's a review abt the movie i got from the internet

Synopsis
In this comic parable of social and political dysfunction, a plane load of roughly a dozen people crash in the desert and find refuge in an oasis. One of the survivors, a businessman (Gamil Ratib), cajoles, cons, and connives his way to power, and once in control, has them do his bidding. He pays his "workers" -- who build his house for him -- as little as he can and punishes them with diminished wages (dates) when they are not producing up to speed. An artist (Ahmed Zaki) tries to organize the workers/passengers into a rebellion but he comes up against a peasant (Hamdi Ahmed) and others who cannot see his point. Revolution appears to be a certainty though, even if the artist initially fails.

Cast

Ahmed Zaki
Painter

Yousra
Hostess

Gamil Ratib
Businessman

Hamdi Ahmed
Peasant
Soad Nasr
Belly Dancer
Sabri Abdel Moneim
Boxer
Medhat Morsi
Pilot
Nagat Ali
Metallurgist
Samir Wahid
Copilot
Wissam Hamdi
Boy
Hussain El Hakim
Steward
Safiya El Omari
Jounalist

The world from outside

now since i changed or as i use my new term found a station full of new cheese last year.



i got to see the world from another point of view using steven covey expression i found a new paradigm i started to see the world from the outside the more i spend time seeing the world from the outside the more i found rage inside the Egyptian community i see .... what can i say a world inside everyone of us everyone is enclosed by a shell and we're all swimming in a big sea the more i get to know ppl and the more i get to see my new paradaigm i realize that we're all running in different directions where exactly i dont know and i get to realize how small the shell the person used to have before ... if you get what i mean Egyptian community is so big and different and it's so hard to see alll the people there rushing running seeking their cheese so hard isn't it .........





The more i spend time trying to see the world from the outside the more i feel that i want to be back to my old shell.

"Aho elly yeshoof el balad men fo2 dah yeshofha agmal balad fel donia enma el donia ta7t 7aga tanya khales"

quote from Adel imam's movie teyoor el zalam i just remember the main theme of the quote not the exact words..........

Here I am once more ( * poem)

So here I am once more
I've reached the same empty shore
Rode the ship and didn't know where to go
All i got is the same way i felt before
So here i am once again
After flying over sees
I found another new pain
The lesson i took wasn't understood
Same pain is regained
Same hate is still there
The lesson i took wasn't understood
Life teaches us and we never learn
That when we take we have to give
The feelings for me are still the same
Same mistakes same pain is regained
I didnt learn the lesson before
So here i am once more
Crying on this empty shore

don't ask me what is this about cause me myself i don't know :D or maybe i know and dont want to believe i know i just wrote it now anyway :D

begad ma 3aref

really confused thoughts let me write them in araby in the most mystery way i could :D

begad ma 3aref ana raye7 fein wala gy menen sa3at ba2ool la2eet kol she2 bas ana 7ases iny tayeh zy ay she2 badawar 3ala el 7akika wel sarab fe nafs el wa2t 3ayesh el 7aya wana zy zy el torab ma3rafsh hanabet zar3 wala la2a el 7akika wel sarab elly etnen ghorab 3alaya la2enohom haye2lomony kol shewya a3ed tayeh mosh 3aref ana raye7 el ne7ya deya wala el ne7ya dih heya el gebna beta3ty bazet wala lessa zy ma heya 7agat keteer feih demaghy we 7ases en koloh hayo2a3 fo2 demaghy mosh 3aref ana aroo7 el ne7ya deya wala deya 3amala el afkar telef we tedoor wel nas fel sa2ya marboota bel 3ard wel tool mosh 3arfa teroo7 el ne7ya deya wala deya wala ya tara ana sa7 lama ekhtart el kelma deya wala deya el 7akika el mora eny mosh 3aref la deya wala deya


just some tahyees in arabic expresses how i feel at 3 am :D

Memories (old poem)

Ok here's the story about memories back to the start of my college year i passed through a terrible week where everything i see makes me remember an old stuff for example everyday in the morning i find my school bus, sometimes i find a pen or an old copy book from my school and i go like Ohhhh "where did these days go" i had this feeling that everything around me remind me of an old event that's why i wrote it ...

Memories:

Memories in my mind always flow
Some useless things
Bring back memories that never end
A small red pen reminds me of an old friend
My old books my old bag
I feel them talking to me
Remember all the memories that we had
When I pass a small road
I remember where I used to walk
Holding my dreams and carrying my thoughts
The school bus still passes my door
But I don't ride it anymore
But my heart goes with it to the place we used to go
Memories in my mind always flow
Like a river that never stops
Some memories are old
But shining like gold
The radio is playing my favorite old song
I used to listen to it when everything went wrong
I'm caged in the memories of the past
The past that couldn't last
Cause as time runs in its one way track
It leaves nothing except memories
And after a couple of years from now
I'll find this poem maybe in a trash
Or maybe written in black
But what I know
Is that it will bring a lot of memories back

I remember that poem was discussed on the cultural workshop and they liked it alot cause they said it was sincere and deep for me what i like about it is that it brings alot of memories back :D

Review on the 7 habits of highly effective people:

Review on the 7 habits of highly effective people:

I’ll try here to say the things I think were really important to me while listening to the audio book.

The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People embody many of the fundamental principles of human effectiveness.
These habits are basic; they are primary. They represent the internalization of correct principles upon which enduring happiness and success are based.

When I heard Steven covey’s audio book he started it with a really weird thing, he said if you want this book to be of a value for you the most important thing for you is to teach it cause when you listen and only listen you won’t be interested but imagine you teaching this book to many people your way of thinking will change.

Paradigms: Covey starts his book with a definition of Paradigms or the way we see the world that’s what he call it, for example when he told us to make sure you’ll teach this book all he did was a total SHIFT in my paradigm to the book, my paradigm was that I’m going to read it only but this shift in paradigm he did when he said you’re going to teach it made me listen more carefully and in much more attention

He says: Our Paradigms are the way we "see" the world or circumstances -- not in terms of our visual sense of sight, but in terms of perceiving, understanding, and interpreting.

Emotional bank account: Covey speaks about the story of the goose and the golden egg we all know it when a farmer found every day a goose that lays him a golden egg and in the end he said I wonder if I kill the goose and take all the golden egg inside it we all know he killed it and found nothing.

The reason for that example was that in our life we have a goose whether it’s our company, wife and resources. These things lay us golden eggs everyday but instead of feeding them we simply hurt them till they are killed and then we have no eggs from them. Covey urges us to feed the goose by creating an emotional bank account which will stand for us simply emotional bank account is a way to feed the goose care for it don’t kill it.

-Six ways 4 emotional bank

1- Simple courtesy "thank you , how are you today"

2-Honesty

3- Keep promises

4- Managing expectations

5-Loyalty "Be loyal to who's absent"

6- If you blow any of the above say, sorry

Emotional bank needs constant feeding to be effective.


Before we state the 7 habits Covey divided people characters to 3 types:

Dependant: The kind of person who always depends on others he always say: ”I blame you” he actually needs other people in order to achieve.

Independent: The total opposite of dependant these people are self reliant "can get what they want he always say:” I can do it”

Interdependent: WE CAN DO IT “together we can make a difference”

The main aim from habits 1,2,3 is to change the person from his dependant characters to independent characters cause we can’t reach the inter dependent level if we have in our team dependant character so our main aim from the first 3 habits is to be Independent.

The main aim for habits 4,5,6 is to change us from independent attitude to interdependent


Habit 1 Be Pro-active:

It's awareness that you're indeed in control
Take responsibility for your self stop blaming conditions it’s the ability to choose your response.
Effective people their behavior is product of their own decisions Reactive people blame environment

“I'm able to choose my own response to what's happening to me...”

You change yourself don’t try to change others ...

"They can't take away our self respect if we don’t leave it to them"

Liberty is condition of environment freedom is condition of person

Habit 2: Begin with the End in Mind:

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us
-- Oliver Wendell Holme

-Covey starts to differentiate between leaders and mangers and say how both are important the best description for this difference when he said

We manage things to lead people
Leadership means directions and management means speed

-He states the story of CEO of a large company who changed his paradigm from management to leadership and how this caused dramatic changes in the company sales simple because he left management and daily objectives to other people who are fit enough to do so and he just freed himself to plan directions for the company.

He urges us to write a powerful mission statement and reinforce what you want inside it.

-----HOW TO CREATE POWERFUL MISSION STATEMENT

You must get centered around a set of values

Mission statement can take a year it must involve every one

You have to believe that you're a programmer before you write the program which means you have to reach the independent state to start writing your mission because you now believe in YOU and that you’re in control simply you’re the programmer now

1-Set a goal and you're in control
2- Make a promise to achieve it

He gave then a really weird example he said imagine you’re attending a funeral of someone and you sit beside the people sitting there change your paradigm now imagine it’s your funeral and you wish to see 4 people to speak about you.

Now choose 4 different persons:

1-From your family: what do you want to hear your wife father and brother say about you what do you wish to hear from them.

2-From your friends: do you want a friend; who say he used to be my best friend

3-From your work: Achievements in work

4-From your community: whether it’s a charity work community service what would you like to hear about your self.

Back to reality you’re now alive choose those 4 people and start working to achieve in all 4 fields don’t make work comes over family or community; work as hard as you can to achieve in those 4 fields

Habit 3: Put First Things First TM -- Principles of Personal Managemen

Habit 3 is simply taking habit 2 and making it happen
habit2 you've defined your priorities Habit3= DO IT

habbit 2 is stating ur mission and goals habbit 3 is ur scheduling around these goals
your time tool is your servent not master

simply use this diagram to organize your time i'm the one who drew it on paint while listening so dont kill me :D

before i start explaining their are basic definitions

Important= Things that will help us achieve our mission

Urgent=Things that happened right now and you have to do it like the ringing phone you have to answer now..

as you can see

quad 1 = urgent and important "disaster""

quad2= Imp only

quad3=Urgent only

quad 4= Neither nor

you get time from Quad 3 and 4 keep taking time from them to reinforce 2
say NO with a smile in 3,4 to improve 2 cause 2 is the most important quad in this box
it takes capacity to act in Quad 2 to be proactive the more u work on quad 2 to reduce prob. of quad 1 simply quad 2 is like feeding the goose that lies you golden eggs if you work on it there will be no disasters cause you have created alot of emotional bank accounts deposits

review habbits

hab 1 needs self awareness

hab 2 needs imagination and consience detect and invent meaning write ur own mission own roles and goals

hab 3 needs personal management

1+2+3= personal security

i'll try to discuss later habits 4,5 and 6 and the most important habit 7

Nile fm forums are back

Me and brainstorm decided to specialize all day today for the forum we started from around 10 am till now i worked hard on removing old posts and moving them an he worked on designs and the best thing is that we agreed on our forum mission and vision so i want to share them with you............

Mission:To be the link between the presenters and listeners,we provide Nile fm listeners a friendly and caring atmosphere,and the presenters all the constructive feedback they need.

Vission:To be the most effective Nile fm fans community, which seeks the best for its station and its country.

I hope if you're a nile fm forum member to like the changes we did and we're sorry if we had to close it for one day

www.nilefm.tk

Chicago Novel

As i went to the book fair last week my grandfather asked me to buy for him Chicago the new novel written by Dr.Alaa el aswany i bought it for him.Today i was visiting him so i decided to take an overview on the book not to mention i didnt read Yacoubian building or even watched the movie.

I can't belive what happened to me when i read the first page i was captured like a prisoner inside the novel i couldnt resist to continue reading, for the first time in my life i can't leave the book i just kept reading non-stop. People used to say that when they read Yacoubian building they couldn't resist continuing it and i was like they're crazy but i can't believe how amazing this guy's style is it's so capturing in an amazing way i won't discuss the novel itself i have some objections on it but i was wondering how can a writer capture his reader in such a way soooo weird as i said i was prisoned inside the novel and i have to say nothing is special about the language .... it's really weird.

I had to leave the book in my grandpa's house and now i'm DYING to continue it :(

7days to go

hello my blog readers how are you all doing? today is friday and while i was taking a sweet rest; thinking of tomorrow, i realized that we're only one week away from going back to colleg :(:( it's so hard to realize that truth i havent got enough yet of holiday, i guess we need more days.

Through the last days, i forgot for a while that i'm an engineer i started to revive many things that were about to die inside of me and it feels so good just to take a rest, to sit with yourself, to meet old friends i really missed these stuff but what can i say life in the end goes on and i have to be back to "koleyet el kherfan" after 7 days we Rabena yesahel.

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